Random Thoughts and flowers

I'm sure it has been said before, or something like it, but today in a conversation, someone asked me about death and seemed concerned about it.

Even though I have found myself quite depressed over a lot of heavy life situations in my life the last few years, one thing that seems apparent to me is that it is more refreshing to live for one's life than for one's death. This is not an "eat, drink, and be merry for tomorrow we die" philosophy, but rather a "live today for that's what you have" belief. Not only live, but live well today, for tomorrow may or may not even be there...whether or not there is something after you die, NOW is still all there is now. I want to make the best of it and find what joy I can in it by sharing joy with others, as this seems to be what makes me happy. At the same time, I plan and hope for things that might happen, also, and in so doing have had many joyful opportunities.

Happiness, for me, comes from doing things for family and friends. I can't be in charge of what they do back to me, only of what I do. It has been harder with the heaviness of heart to do as much as I want to do, but I live with joy when I make one of them smile.

Posting a few more flowers from my neighborhood walks, as I'm not sure what kind of post this really is, but I was full of thought this evening, rather than blogginess.